10/28/2018 0 Comments Last time i do something nice.October 29th, 2018; 1:20amSo Alan and I had plans to go to a halloween party tonight but my mom asked if I could drive with Alan to Tucson (which is 2 hours away) to help my aunt and uncle move. I said yes because I thought I was doing something nice. Her boyfriend has been away all week and she wanted him to be home instead of spending the night in Tucson again. I got off of work early to leave to be there by 7 which is when everyone else was going to be arriving from yuma (which is 3 hours away) with the uhaul. Alan had just worked 10 hours and was exhausted. I had a hard time driving down there especially because it was in the dark. I get there and my mom says "oh they aren't here, they're still in yuma". I asked her why she didn't tell me so I could turn around and she said that she had booked a hotel. I asked if I was going to just be spending the night at the house by myself and she said "idk what to do". I told her I can spend the night at Alan's house. She cancelled the hotel and said "I dont care but can you drop me off at the house" no more than an hour after I make the 2 hour drive im making it again to head back home. Missing the party and all the other plans I had tonight, but it okay I guess because I get to spend the night with my boyfriend so I guess that makes up for it, so I thought. I drive past Alan's house still thinking im going to be spending the night at his house. I drop my mom off and say im gonna shower. Before I shower she asked me to come here so I did and I told her I was taking milo with me. She said "well youre coming back right?" I said "no you said I could spend the night" we argued for about 20 minutes and she said "I came home to prevent you from spending the night. I had you drop me off first because I didn't think you wanted me to be there when you dropped him off". I'm sorry so you made me drive 2 hours, making me miss the halloween party that Alan has been so excited for since September, you make me think I get to spend the night with him, I drive another 2 hours back, so basically 4 straight hours, I pass his house, come home. and now you want me to drive another hour to drop him back off and then come home. So in total drive 5 hours. I am livid. I am so tired, Im so upset. then she says "spend the night but dont make me regret saying go". No im not going to spend the night because I know youre just going to hold it over my head. My mom loves to play these testing games to see what I will do and it really only ends up with me more upset in the end. So in the end she made me miss a party and drive 5 hours for no reason but the original plan was so that way she could spend the night with her boyfriend. How childish and selfish. I am beyond mad and I dont expect to talk to her for a while. Tonight driving home I was praying a car would hit me and kill me just so I didn't have to deal with her bullshit anymore. Days like these are when I honestly think about packing everything I can and never returning home. I want to move out so bad and I brought the idea up to her that by next year I want to move out and she told me I can't do it. not that she isn't giving me permission but that im physically incapable of doing it. and her boyfriend told me I can start paying rent to him. so yea im sick and tired of this and I can't wait to not have to deal with her shit anymore. This is the last time I try to be nice.
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10/28/2018 0 Comments THE FairOctober 28, 2018; 1:20amAlan and i went to the fair today. i had the time of my life and on the drive home we were listening to alternative music and i realized i really am living my best life. i’m so happy with where i am in life. i hate my job but everything else is perfect. I wouldn’t trade it for the world. then we kept driving and he asked me to play “speechless” and when i played it he told me it reminded him of me. i looked over and he was crying. he said every time he listens to it it makes him cry. this boy truly loves me. i realized that tonight and i don’t know what i would do if i ever lost him. he means so much to me and gives me the world. i’m so excited to see where life takes us and how much we are going to grow in the future.
October 10, 2018; 10:21pmCurrently I nanny for 2 boys ages 3 and 1 and a half. Matthew (the 1 year old) was napping and when he woke up I went to get him from upstairs only when I went upstairs he was in his parents room... with the door locked. I tried telling him how to get out but he is only 1 and doesn't understand. I called my mom and tried picking the lock but nothing was working. I start to cry as I realize that I am going to have to call their mom, thinking im going to lose my job. I call their mom and she told me to call the non-emergency fire department. I called them with a screaming 1 year old in the background from behind the door. They come out and it takes 5 grown men and 30 minutes to get the doorknob off of this door. After 30 minutes and a sweat-filled shirt they finally get the door open. I honestly was having such a panic attack but everything turned out okay and no one was hurt. But I will tell you, I will never forget this day.
10/2/2018 0 Comments Happy 2 monthsOctober 2nd, 2018; 10:50pmAbout 2 and a half months ago I got stood up. I didn't even bother to put much makeup on figuring I was going to be stood up, as it wasn't the first time. I waited and waited but he never showed. So I was bored, sitting all alone in my room after only a month of being out here. When I got a snapchat from this guy I had added a couple weeks back. I open it and it's him asking if I was busy at all and if I wanted to go to a movie. Hesitantly I said sure and invited him over. I still didn't bother to get much more ready than I already had been because I was sure he was going to stand me up too. 30 minutes later I get a snap saying he is here. I freak out because honestly I was not expecting him to show up. We went for a drive that night and I instantly fell in love. Today marks our 2 months and I couldn't be happier. I had to work today but I still got to see him for a little bit which is always nice. I have started to appreciate all of the small things he does. Today when I got to his house he had a letter waiting on the table for me telling me how much he appreciates me. We get In N Out a lot and I always get animal fries but I never finish them all so we share them. But instead of sharing the whole thing, every time without fail he will wait until I have eaten all of the good parts and I am completely done before he finishes them. He never asks for it and he never complains about it. I wake up to good morning texts a lot and it melts my heart. Most guys don't understand that girls notice the little things and it is the little things that mean the most. Thank you love for all that you do for me.
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